feel like this know

once again..im waiting..waiting for something i dont know what it is.
feeling so superficial and at the same time so sensitive, that per hours i just cant know who i am...
these is coming back to me... milions things from the past, and all the gohsts i never thought they yet lived here....im my head...these deamonds are entering slowly until i can stop them with a screm that i dont want to give...i am not use to it any more....
go away pleaze, just leaveme here, with my life, because if u dont gimme any kind of emotion , dont give bad thougts either...
maybe is just a felling or a bad impression, maybe is just me talking about myself, or maybe is just me trying to be me.
in these time im not sure of anything, i m a total stranger in my own live...the calm is passing, and the more agressive things i know arent here, its in the middle, should i call it a n equlibrium that is fallinga appart?or does it make part of the process?well, in this second round, i fell i have one milion questions, and i give myself the permission to know the answers.so above this all, i wanna go along the way that i choose, with the authority of being happyyyyy